Wednesday, December 26, 2012

R.I.P. JENNY BIG GIRL

The vet just left, & John is digging.  Unfortunately he's getting very experienced at getting the hole just the right size.

The vet drew blood on Buddy Brat & Cisco & we decided to take both of them into the clinic, to have Buddy's sarcoid taken off his sheath.  The clinic has a new freezing machine that Dr. Megan said would be perfect for Buddy's little match head size growth, but they don't take it into the field.  And in order to get an endoscope done on Cisco, we have to go to the office, so we'll just take them both at the same time.  She agreed that a lot of the swallowing problems Cisco is having could definitely be caused by being used as a roping donkey.  And the endoscope might not even show anything even if they manage to get it down his throat, which might not happen.  

Then it was on to Jenny for evaluation.  I unwrapped her foot, & on examination, Dr. Megan said she could feel swelling clear up above the coronet, & that we had lost some of the hoof integrity on either side of the abscess area.  There was very little doubt that the foot was not going to get better.  I was surprised the material that I thought might be cartilage that was sticking out of her foot, was just more proud flesh.  She said proud flesh on lower legs & feet, can behave in lots of weird ways.  

Jenny was the first one that I couldn't stay with, we had just too much time & effort together, & she was still healthy & happy, just couldn't walk very good.  John stayed with her & said he was petting & talking to her when she went down.   She was going to be euthanized if we hadn't taken her 5 1/2 years ago, & she had over 4 years of relatively good life, so I guess I will have to be satisfied with that.  

Good-bye my big girl.....!!

9 comments:

Donna said...

So, so sorry. What a shame, you did your best and what is best for her.

Tish said...

Thank you, I really hate to give up though, but sometimes there just isn't any more options.

Patti said...

Even if they only have a little while with you, it's a chance for them to find out "oh - this is what it is supposed to be like" and time, however short, to be what they were meant to be before they leave.
The time they get to spend surrounded by the good karma at Forever Home may not totally make up for what's gone before in their lives but at least they get to leave with love instead of fear.

Tish said...

Thanks Patti, you just went thru this too with Choli. There's a certain amount of relief once it's over, but it's still difficult & I'm still playing the "what if" mind game.

Witcheylady said...

Stop that "what if" thing!
Tish, you & John go sooo above & beyond the norm....please don't beat yourself up.
Sometimes all we can do is give them the best life for whatever time they have left. I believe you have told me the same thing on several occasions. I know you are still feeling raw right....so many hugs to you both! Congratulations on the baby! Any names yet?

Suzon said...

I am so sorry, Tish.-Suzon Hawley

Kathy said...

Shed a tear here but I know you did the right thing sending hugs

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Tish said...

I appreciate the good thoughts. Everyday makes it easier to accept, but I still think about all that might have been done over the last year to have had a different outcome.